Friday, May 28th, 2004
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Friday, May 21st, 2004
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Thursday, January 8th, 2004
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3:33 pm - Yep Im still here.
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Its weird how much has happen since my last update. Well the past few days have been mind breaking. I dont ive been under so much pressure in a long time. Decisions decisions decisons. Thats all i have been taking this week. Where exactly are they going to take me? who knows. I just know that certain people are going to be there no matter what. ive come to the conclusion that i have gone my perhaps my lowest point in my life. well its time to get up. once you hit the bottom there is only one way to go, up. how long will this road to recovery will take? who knows. only time can tell. but i like to thank someone special thats help me through all of this. most of you might know who it is, Reyna. Shes has been all the help ive gotten so far. But that has been more than enough. Its time to stop! im tired of what ive let myself become. I dont think ive felt this misereable about myself. but its all going to change. actually its been changing little by little. i only say im going to do certain things but i dont end up doing them. i have to stop letting things get to me. well a new year and another chance to make everything right. i have toom many people depending on me. and you know what. i think thats cool. i get all this attention and when i shine its going to be the coolest feeling in the world. but thats it for now. cant wait to the new semester starts. i miss my dorm friends.
well see everyone on sunday hopefully. i have to go pick up mistress back at home. see everyone soon.
current mood:  content
current music: Lifehouse- Sick Cycle Carousel
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Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
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5:44 pm
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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2:44 pm - For the Past Days......
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WE drove to Carbondale and by that i mean Reyna and my brothers, who by the way did a really good job of keeping me awake the whole time and decided to take them out to for pizza twice. Once we got here to carbondale it was hot as heck. We were the first ones to move all our things in the room. Once that was done we decided to go check how everything with school was regarding classes and everything else. Nothing was the way i thought it would be. From class cancelation to financial aid problems to and my job. Everything that could go wrong with school probably did go wrong.Good things i had We were able to solve a couple of them though. I have class on Tuesdays and Thrusdays only. Thats a good thing right?
WE left to chicago once again to return the van and attend my cousins catilion(is that how you spell it?) it was fun but sometimes something can go wrong. We also went to Reyna's sister to eat. It was a pretty long day. Once we were dont we went to get the rest of our things to come back. Yes another fun six hour drive next to a person I really really love and she couldnt get out of the car if she wanted to :) heh heh. We actually made it here in less that six hours. We stopped at a gas station to gamble. We lost like 4 dollars. its one of those machines that pushes more quarters out if you put one in. We must have been there like half an hour and all we were going to do was put gas. Oh well it was fun.
So far Ive been feeling a little better after everything that has been going on since i got here. It perhaps could have been worse. My classes so far have been ok. I have one more to go and ill be done with the day. Then i get to go back to the room. See Ya. I LOVE YOU REYNA!!!! Bye.
Oh yeah internet has been really suckie lately. It better get better.
current mood: happy
current music: Air Conditioning
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Friday, August 8th, 2003
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10:14 pm - Last Day at Work
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Well today is my last day of work here at EGL. I dont think ive ever work at a place were cursing was a must. Where profanity is taken lightly heck even the supervisors were in it also.My job here was as a data entry person. I was responsible for making sure where peoples things were going to be shipped at. I work with CDW the whole time. It was easy depending how much came in every night. But once i got the hang of it it was nothing. Not a bad job except for the part that its the night shift. So when Friday night would come and everyone was going out i was going to work. I slept during the day like a vampire. Cool people i will remember from this place are:
Dino a Devry graduate who according to Adam hes a chick magnet?
Moving on, Scott an ex-personal fitness coach who knows everything on a label regarding the things you put in your mouth. Must admit the guy knows his stuff and is so far the guy with most tatoos that ive met and talk to. Hes the guy responsible for COSNOP (concetrate on solutions not on problems) which is one of the companies motto or something.
Vince who is an old school gang banger who use to live on 26th st. Takes no crap from no one. He also has rims on every car he has. He currently drives an Cadillac with 20's and a gold grill. If he could he would put rims in the forklifts at work. hes half italian and has been stab and shot at.
Roman, one of my supervisors, the coolest one ive had so far. If he didnt remember something or wanted to know about something he tell you to go on the internet and look it up. Pretty cool. And if you were done with your work he'll let you do pretty much anything.
Amber, my other supervisor, who is probably more manlier than other guys here. i think she was in the military which pretty much explains things. Shes really cool after all once you get to know her or go to midway airport to drop of some cargo for her. She really likes to talk when there is nothing to do like this whole week pretty much. She told a guy "not even a hi or a fuck you or how you doing" things like that. she called another supervisor the data entry bitch i laughed for a while on that one.
Melinda, data entry goddess, knows how to do every data entry job without having to look at the screen. She the one that taught me and ask me if i was Filipino. Shes really happy all the time and is six months pregnant.
Those are the people that made EGL fun to work at for the last two months or so. They gave me a chance to come and work in december which is really cool. Cant wait. The best day i had here must have been when we had nothing to do and it wasnt even eleven. Dino decided so go joyriding on one of the forklifts and pretend he was shooting Vince. Vince also had brought a lowrider magazine in which everyone at the office was intersted in, and im not talking about the rims in the magazine. that same night they decided to go on the internet and look at the meet market on q101's website. they were actually giving them ratings depending on everyones reaction when they saw it. Yes even the supervisors were in it at least the guys were. We were calling people over the intercom and reffering them as cupcake which is a word that is used to refer to people here. it was just insane but fun.
Well tha past few days have kind of suck i havent slept since i came to work on tuesday night. i havent been able to close my eyes i think i even forgot how to do that, oh wait it does it by itself, hehe. I dont get sleepy when i get home anymore because my body got used to not falling asleep and being to someone that we really like in the mornings. But that hasnt happen in a while.
Another thing about this week was that i was suppose to get my hard drive since wednesday. Everything turn into a mess damn does UPS people. But i did end up getting the hard drive tonight. Finally. Well i have less than a week here in chicago and must make the most out of it. This summer has been a crazy summer starting with our carzy neighbor who broke our van window because she thinks we pick on her sons. We had problems with her before. The whole neighborhood dislikes her. Cops she must have call the cops like 5 times. Then today narcs came rushing to the house like they were chasing someone. they were apparently looking for someone. They almost shot my dog since he came charging at them.
Ive ben extremely lonely for the past couple of days. its really hard to explain. I think thats one of the reasons that i havent been able to sleep. I miss my Reyna :(
current mood:  hungry
current music: 12 Stones- The Way I Feel
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2003
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12:43 am - Spare Time (not easy to find)
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Hey Everyone!!! Im here at work doing nothing, isnt that cool?, waiting fot the other trucks to come in. I work in the Operations Department. I get paid ok. But money seems to go away right away. Anyhow alot of us will be going to Great America next monday. Cant wait!!! The thing is it will be the first time where i would have my girlfriend, family, and friends going at the sametime which should be a fun experience, i hope. Next week we leave to carbondale and by we i mean Reyna and I, oh and i almost forgot gen heh heh, yes gen you will be coming with us. By the way is the computer doing ok? i dont ive never let my computer at anyone's house. I was thinking of how to pay you back and you know what was the first thing the came to mind? QUATROS!!!!! yes? ok. oh yeah by the way can i download a bunch of stuff while the computer is in your b-ment? moving on. cant wait for the busy week. its going to be really cool. See everyone soon!!! And ill see you Reyna really really soon :) bye!
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Wednesday, July 16th, 2003
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2:57 am - Hi Everyone *hides*
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I decided to take some time to write in this that is if livejournal still lets me. If anyone ask where have i been i can i only say in the clouds flying high. This summer has been a blast and i really dont want it to end at all. Everything that has happen since i came back from carbondale has been great. Ive been able to share especial moments with my Reyna that i cant wait to see after this :) but yes im still alive and at work working at night the third shift and i did my job so i get some puter time. and i thank everyone that at least gave a call to say whats up. one more month and im gone once again.
current mood:  awake
current music: data entry typing
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Friday, May 9th, 2003
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12:58 am - Last Night at Carbondale
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Well tonight is the last night i will spending at carbondale. The past five weeks seem to be infinite but i must admit i enjoy every second of it. Finals are done with. One everyday. after finishing the last one it was nothing but relief. Getting permission to work only made it better.
We just came back from playing basketbal. It was fun although it was hot and humid. I lost the game of 21 :( my friend hit his head against the poll and knocked out to the floor.
ive pretty much packed everything except for the thing im on right now which is my computer. Im really happy that im finally going home. cant wait. it going to be like 10 hour drive. this is what is scheduled:
1. Pick up truck at 8:30
2. Load all the stuff
3. Give keys to RA
4. Drive home.
5. Drop off my friend mike in Evergreen Park
6. Drop off gen and pick up cell phone
7. Drop off my roomate Nick in Glenview.
8. Drive home.
It may not seem alot but it is. im sure it will be fun. well good-bye carbondale. see yah in a couple of months. oh yeah i got off work. heh. people are going to get mad but whatever. well ill update from my house next time. see everyone back at home.
current mood: excited
current music: Nas (ft. Puff Daddy) - Hate Me Now
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Sunday, May 4th, 2003
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3:38 am - Paintball Madness!!!
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Today we went paintballin. it was really really fun. i got shot several times. some in the face too. it seems that adrenaline took the pain of a paintball coming at you at least 50 miles an hour. I got to say it was one of the best times ive had. I got shot in the chest also. Shooting people at knowing its going to hurt made me feel good. it was more like a stress reliever almost.
Last night i went to play outdoor basketball. We got off to a bad start but made a sweet comeback. i was 8 for 8. We won the series best of five. other team left kind of upset that we beat them. they are looking forward to rematch. and ill be wating.
THis week is finals week and i have 4 to take. Im done on thrusday. but we wont be leaving until friday due to financial services. heh. but first i have to deal with finals and study study study. But once i get home i know everything will be ok.
But the person that i really want to see might not even be there. I really wish i can see you this friday Reyna. I really do. Ive waited too long.
well that is it for now. See everyone next weekend.
current mood:  pensive
current music: Lifehouse- Breathing
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Tuesday, April 29th, 2003
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1:45 pm - OverTime
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Well today was suppose to be an easy day. I had to go to class for an hour and then go to work for 2 hours. But i apparently i was asked if i could work my friend's shift. so i get to stay until 430pm. which is i guess ok. afterall extra money couldnt hurt. I really cant wait for this semester to be over. i finally get to go home next friday. its going to be a long day. I have to work, pick up the truck, and drive 6 hours, and drive my friends to their houses and drop their things off and be the last one to be dropped off. ahhhhhh i but i know its going to be worth. im sure we are going to have fun.
we stayed up late last night playing scrabble on the internet. it was fun. gen once again won. its fun. the computer has been probaly been the reason for my lack of sleep. well i have to go back to work now. it should be easy i hope.
current mood:  hot
current music: Eminem,- Til I Collapse
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Saturday, April 26th, 2003
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3:49 am - Finally!!!
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Im updating from somewhere very special. Well for the past 5 hours or so the closest thing that i have been to is my computer. After i dont know how long its finally functioning. i have to admit i still have more things to add to it. it should be more fun. for now im pretty much running the basics. i still have to add the tv tuner card. there will more to add later.
The bad part is that i really cant enjoy this moment as i would like to. Back at home i received news that the person i love the most wasnt feeling good. i didnt get to talk to her because she was sleeping trying to get rid of whatever she might have. i really wish i could be there with her :( well i hope she wakes up fine. I know she will.
i have to get up in about 6 hours to go help out at the concession stands at the arena. it might be a long day tomorrow. today too but the computer made it all different. well see. I hope everyone is doing great. i talked to some people that i havent talked to in a long time. it was good to hear from them. i might get to see them after the semester is over i hope.
but tomorrow is a new day with new things i guess. what can i expect. good night everyone. hmmmm should i play some CS right now? ill think about it.
current mood: hopeful
current music: Sound of my CPU fan cooling the processor.
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Friday, April 25th, 2003
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12:03 pm - Its about to be a weird weekend i think.
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Well gen left to go home yesterday. he took oso with him not that hes going to take him to prom or anything. im sure gen will be having fun this weekend.
well its raining outside like if were florida or something. and the bad thing is that i got wet. i cold and wet. typeing on this keyboard can be so hard if you shiver alot.i work in about an hour. i think its going to be boring. usally weather tells what can of day its going to be. raining and cold and cloudy doesnt sound good to me. but thank God that there is other things that make me happy.
today im hoping to get my motherboard to finally get that stupid computer working. and tomorrow i have to go ship out the other two motherboards. i might ask my friend justin to give me a ride. as for the rest of the weekend i might help out in the concession stand at the SIU arena. the Dragontales crew will be performing. i might want to go hug one of them or something heh. what is they burn me? hmmmm it should be fun though. i get to eat for free.
i think that will be the only thing for this weekend and studying for my math test.i only got 2 more weeks down here. i hope the rest of the day goes well for me and for anyone else that is reading this. bye
current mood:  cold
current music: Chevelle- Comfterble Liar
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Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003
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10:29 pm - Worst Church ever!!!!!
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So today i decided to go to a "Christian Science" church on campus and i must say it was the most boring service ever. It almost seem like an eternity to be there.
When we first arrived there i thought we were going to be the only their. But there were two other people that were also there due to the homework assignment that everyone apparently is leaving to the end or something. Gen knew of of them.
It first started off with an intro with the organ. it was a long intro i tell you. It sounded something out of a horror movie. Then we finally started off with a hymn. I think i was the only guest that was trying to sing to it. If anything i was singing better than the other people. From there a lecture was read for about 20 min about David and the lions. No comments were made there was only reading going on. After that another hymn was sung. After that probaly the worst part of the service was the lady asked if anyone wanted to give thanks to God or something. I would have said something but that thing is that she didnt extent the invitation to the guest. I would have felt awkward.
it took 2 minutes for the first person to talk. Then it took about 5 for the other person to talk. Within that time there was nothing but complete silence that seem to scare me. All i could here was gen's stomach digesting the pizza that we had ate before we got there. The service took an hour but it seemed more like 4 hours. At the end they kept insisting to come back. i was like "yeah right". there is no way i am going to go back to that place ever.
then with the whole fact that they dont believe in medicine at all. that only prayer heals you. ok you got to be kidding me. perhaps that explains their low membership. But i guess overall it was a bad experience for someone that was their first time in church. i guess everyone has something different to believe in.
As for the rest of the time that i havent updated i have just been trying to survive in carbondale. this last couple of weeks that are left seem very infinite. Finals are just around the corner. Im pretty much ready for them. sure they will require all night study but it will be worth it. Tomorrow i have to go pay and reserve the U-Haul truck its going to be about $200. Its going to be 4 of us riding in it. someone might be going in the back of the truck. It should be a fun 6 hour fun drive all the way to glenview which is were my roomate Nick. It should be an intersting ride.
Well we leave on Friday afternoon like at 4pm or so. I hope everything goes according to plan. I know once im done with dropping everyone off i get to see someone special and all will be forgotten. But in the meanwhile i can wait and be patient. i will see you soon Reyna.
Well gen is bugging me about hurrying up. he has work to do. So i guess ill go now. See yah
current mood: good
current music: glassjaw- when 1 8 becomes 2 0's
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Friday, April 18th, 2003
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8:46 am - Its just a part of life.
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It seems that every time i jump to conclusion i can only thing the negatively. I found out that sometimes jumping to conclusions might be a bad idea and being patient and find out what actually happen is wayyyyy better than assuming thing. Sorry :(
well i just got out of my speech class. i took a test and i did ok. i didnt get any sleep at all last night besides the fact that people were making out in our bathroom which is really sick. other people use that bathroom you know. ughhhh. Ni modo.
i plan to buy another new motherboard today to finally have my computer running. i have to return the other 2 back to newegg now that im at it dont buy from newegg. well at least their motherboards. i really hope i get one. oh yeah Gen is going to burn me a CD yey!!!!
Well im off to math class. I havent even started my day. And i have no sleep. and woke up this morning and got myself a test. heh. well talk to you all later.
current mood: peaceful
current music: Nas- Poison
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Tuesday, April 15th, 2003
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9:18 pm - Why me!!!!!
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Ok so i got my computer and was putting it together. Apparently it doesnt seem to work. What is the problem i am not sure. the thing is that once it starts installing windows on it it just decided to shut down. at least we were able to get further than originally before. but tomorrow i should get a call from the guy at duckets. hopefully its nothing bad or expensive.
as for today thats all i did. try to get the computer to work. and i went to the post office to mail school info. I have an essay to do. but i dont think im going to do. if anything ill do it tomorrow before i go to class. well perhaps the days ends better tonight. well tomorrow i hope i get news from my computer. i just want for it to work :(
current mood: contemplative
current music: 50 Cent- Patiently Waiting
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7:38 am - Ok Perhaps today.
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So yesterday i was waiting for my motherboard to be in my computer by 5. So i check the status and what do i get? "Not ready for due Date". Im like what the fudge. So my motherboard has been sitting for the past 24hrs just sitting in a truck just because FedEx decided to torcher me by not delivering my mobo. Dont they know i really need this. Are they conspiring against me and not give me my motherboard. What cant they just understand. If its not there by the time i get back from class FedEx might be getting some kind of threat or something.
Yesterday was more like an easy peaceful day. Ok except for the part where people were having water balloon fights. It was African Americans against the white people. I was like "are the civil rights movements over?" But im sure they were having fun. gen and i were the only spectators i think.
talking with Reyna at the end of the day just made it easier to sleep. Oh and for those that dont know (sounds like the Benzino Dis) Reyna and I are officially together :0 !!!!!! Couldnt be any better. SO there. Its only like 4 weeks (Ive had a couple dicussions about this already) until i get to go home and see her. I miss you!!!!
WEll that is all for now. I have to go to class and perhaps get my paper back. And if any FedEx employee comes across this Ill be waiting for my motherboard today. It better be there by 10am. So see everyone later.
current mood:  anxious
current music: Sevendust- Beatiful
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Friday, April 11th, 2003
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9:19 am - Friday Finally!!!!!
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I just odered my motherboard today. I should be getting it on monday. if anything it be cool if it was shipped today. but who knows. But its been done. monday i might have a computer running.
yep thats it. Gen help me choose it. i hope everything goes well with this one too. Oh yeah im going to try to get a certain someone to SIUC. i thinks its possible. I dont see why not. But thats my mission for today. To ask about stuff and inform back to the person. I have one more class to go and i have to go see the nurse for the stupid eye thing.
Well i cant wait to this day is over. i might go out to eat tonight or something to get out of studying. Im thinking quatros.heh. anyone want to join? its a good say.
the bad part is that i wont be going home anytime soon, but my parents are giving me money :) See yah la8er. Reyna I miss you!!! Cant wait to be with You!!!
current mood:  bouncy
current music: Lincoln Park- Somewhere i belong
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Thursday, April 10th, 2003
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10:35 am - Sty or Sti
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Well i was up all night typing my stupid paper. I was able to finish it on time though so it wasnt that bad. I only got about an hour of sleep. Another thing i discover last night was that i had a "sti" according to the nurse that i went to see thing morning. She said i should be fine. o just put warm water on it like every 4 hours or so. If nothing happens she said to come back so they can perhaps do something else to it.
i have work in about half an hour. I really dont feel like working today. especially since i didnt get any sleep and this eyes is irritating me alot. i just want to go home and sleep or be somewhere else that isnt here in carbondale but i wont anytime soon.
well of to work. at least i get to order my motherboard tomorrow and have my computer running finally. that seems like the only thing i really look forward this weekend. But im sure it will be fun though. Well that is all for now. 3 more weeks to go before i get to go home.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Linkin Park- Somewhere i belong
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Wednesday, April 9th, 2003
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8:28 am - 24 Hours of no sleep ahead.
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Well last night i enjoyed talking to one of the most wonderful people in the world. I really dont mind being with her on the phone. The bad part about our conversations is they have to end. I wish they never did.
Well today i got early and even rushed to class so i wont be late. What hapenned when i go there? the teacher wasnt there. so much for being in a hurry. but its ok. i get to write on this. I have a test at 1pm. Im going to skip out on lecture to study for it or so i think. This semester is almost over and its getting down to papers and more test and finals.
I have a paper due tomorrow. I think ill do ok. Its not as bad as i think it was going to be. But well see. I hope i get some type of sleep. But most likely ill finish like at 4 or 5am. Who knows maybe even earlier. But couple more weeks and im out of here on the way back to chicago to be in her arms.
WEll no sleep until Friday. it wont be the first time. Wish me good luck. Im going to really need it. As long as I got someone special to encourage me to do something i know i can do it. Cant wait to see her.
In conclusion its going to feel like the world is on my shoulders and everyone is leaning on me (just like eminem) But i know im not alone. Another thing that has been brought up my attention is considering a double major. I am getting a minor is psychology might as well major in it you know. But ill have to ask to see how long that would take. But thats Eric thinking a little bit too much. Hopefully he wont crazy (why am i talking in third person?)well anywho cant wait to go home and enjoy the summer.
current mood: sleepy
current music: Eminem- Square Dance
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